A year ago today we discovered that our rainbow baby was on her way

Definition: A “rainbow baby” is a baby that is born following a miscarriage or stillbirth. A rainbow after the storm.

In Spring of 2014, our first pregnancy ended in an early miscarriage. Fast forward to the summer, and a year ago today we found out that our rainbow baby was on their way.

After staring in disbelief at the positive pregnancy test, I said to Derek, “you don’t get a second line without having the pregnancy hormone present. There’s false negatives but false positives are extremely rare. This means that at least for now, I’m pregnant.” In that moment, we both felt uncertain if this pregnancy would end in miscarriage or be our rainbow baby. We decided that for right now, for this moment, we were expecting. Derek suggested that we go out and celebrate! So we did. We went to a waterfront restaurant in town. While there, a little girl sat at a table over from us with her parents. During our dinner, she kept looking at me and smiling. I wondered if this was a sign that we would have a baby 9 months from now and that our baby would be a girl.

A year ago today, our lives were forever changed. She was tiny but on her way. On this day, I’m sleep deprived and haven’t showered or brushed my teeth. But I’m happy. I’m forever grateful for our rainbow after the storm. Baby girl, thank you for being the experience of a lifetime. We love you and cherish the light that you have brought to our lives.

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4 thoughts on “A year ago today we discovered that our rainbow baby was on her way”

  1. That’s a beautiful story Rachel, I had never heard how you came to know about your pregnancy. It brought tears to my eyes, knowing that you will meet your unborn baby someday, as I will meet ours too, it’s bitter sweet to know that our baby has already met his/ her daddy, but I know Doug is loving every minute. Love you both, you are wonderful parents, but always knew you would be, Izy is truly blessed as are the two of you. XO

  2. I just found out a week ago yesterday that my husband and I lost our baby, and your post gives me hope for the future. When I got the sonogram, they checked my ovaries and uterus and said there was no reason that I shouldn’t have a normal pregnancy, so I hope to have a “rainbow baby” soon.

    1. I am SO sorry for your loss. A miscarriage is a complicated yet profound grief. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. I am glad that this post gave you a sense of hope for the future. I hope you get to hold your rainbow baby in your arms soon! Hugs.

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