Emotions leading up to last Sunday at church

With this Sunday being our last at our church (of 6 years), people have been asking me how I’m doing. The best way that I can describe it is…it reminds me of what it felt like to graduate from my beloved college. The years were special. Amazing friendships. Spiritual and personal growth. There were hard times but lots of good times. Life felt full due to living in community. But it had to come to an end eventually. You’re thankful for what was…sad that it’s over…and a little anxious with all the unknown that is ahead.

While that’s the best analogy that I can offer for how I’m feeling now as a season of life & ministry comes to an end, it also falls short. You see, after graduating from Roberts, I could go back to visit at anytime. It didn’t affect my friendships. Leaving a church (for whatever reason – even for those who retire) is different. I can’t go back. It would be considered bad practice if I walked in the church doors on a Sunday in the next year (or more). The finality of it all chokes me up in ways that my college graduation didn’t.

So to be honest, with our last Sunday quickly approaching…I’m either keeping myself busy by helping my husband tie up loose ends or feeling the weight of it all (sad). Leaving a church is a form of loss for every pastor and their family, even when it was their decision to do so.

Maybe it’s a good thing that I feel sadness as we lead up to our last Sunday. Maybe my emotions confirm what I say with my mouth: I’m grateful for the past 6 yrs at our church and will never forget it.  And maybe my emotions are showing me just how deeply I have loved this community of people (lump in throat). Okay, so on that note, I’m going to have a little cry…

Wish us luck for Sunday!

6 thoughts on “Emotions leading up to last Sunday at church”

  1. I can’t say I know exactly how you feel but I too have been looking watching the calendar and know with sadness perhaps more than others what this Sunday means. I am praying that God will provide peace and strength when the day comes so that you will not focus on what it means but enjoy the day with your church family during the service, Baptism and picnic.

  2. Oh my goodness, you hit the nail on the head. The saddest part is that it is so final, and it’s not normal to visit anytime soon. So sad! We just made the move to a new church last year when my husband got his own church about 45 minutes away from our old one. So hard to leave those strong ties!

    From the other side, I can tell you that it does get better and you do move on to new friends and situations. But you’ll always love and miss those people!

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